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March 22, 2006
What Goes Around
WHY DOESN'T HE CALL?
OR EMAIL?
Clearly I'm overthinking this issue. It's only been 14 hours since my "do you want to go out on Saturday" email (how sad is it that I know the number of hours?), yet I can't help checking my email every 2 minutes* and checking my voicemail every time I walk out of the room for a minute (despite the fact that I set my ringer on "high" and never stray more than down the hall).
I'm a freak.
I've become one of the women I hate**--obsessive about men and unable to talk about anything else. I can't concentrate on work (of which I have gads), and there's nothing else here to do except perhaps laundry, which at the most would provide me with 10 minutes of diverted attention.
What I need is to get away from the internet and my cell phone--thus breaking the mental chains that bind me to this notion that--at any given moment, even perhaps this VERY next moment--I can get off the emotional merry-go-round. Better to just live with the anxiety in a location that prevents me from acting upon it.
That's right, I'm going shopping.
* I've checked email three times during the writing of this entry...no, four times.
** Although the "now that I've found the love of my life, I am a complete woman" people also irritate me. Perhaps because they have what I don't, but still--do they have to be so annoying? To be honest, this doesn't really apply to anyone I know (at least the vast majority of the time), but has the unfortunate ability to crop up right when I'm feeling sensitive about my "strong, independent woman vs. need to be attached" dilemma.
Comments
from a freak who checks her three email accs every few minutes to another freak-- i share your dilemma. and imagine this:
(1) this guy frequently calls but has cancelled our (blind) date at the 11th hour-- twice. he later admitted that he was too nervous to meet me. Duh!
(2) another guy says he "fancies" me, we get along pretty well (on-line/phone), but wont meet me due to one differing opinion. What the??
(3) a couple of guys asked for my hands in marriage-- as their second wife.(Muslim men can have up to four wives at one time) Sigh~
talk about dilemmas!
Posted by: siti at March 23, 2006 04:11 AM
