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March 21, 2006
Feeling
This afternoon I sat in the Takoma Park Library with a warm and snuggly 4-year old on my lap. We watched the Worlds Big and Small: Weston Woods/Scholastic Animations presentation of the DC Environmental Film Festival, along with a class of kindergarten and 1st graders. We were among the only "parent-child" attendees, and for one of the few times in my life I felt like a stay-at-home mom.
This afternoon I sat in Teaism, interviewing a guy who would like to come work for me on a contract basis. We discussed business and the common networks in which we participate. I asked about his background and where he saw his career going. We did not talk about our personal lives. For the only time in my life, I felt like a boss.
This evening I sat at the Melrose Hotel, surrounded by fellow small business owners looking to network. I ate cheese and crackers and drank water to avoid the cash bar. I won a Linksys Wireless Router in the raffle. I handed out business cards and discovered a new women's business network group and a potential host for the Big Idea conference in June. In what is becoming an almost normal experience, I felt like an entrepreneur.
This evening I drove home wishing that Mr. Cool would call, even if only to blow me off in a socially acceptable way. I checked my phone to make sure I hadn't missed a voicemail, and checked my email within 30 seconds of walking through the door. Still nothing, and so I sent him an email asking point blank if he would like to go to the theatre on Saturday. As I pushed "send" I was forced to conclude that while proactive initiative is what I'm best at, it makes me feel oh-so-vulnerable. In what is now an everyday occurance, I felt single and alone.
Comments
:( Despite feeling depressed, this was a superbly written entry. You never disappoint.
Posted by: Mr. Crips at March 22, 2006 09:38 AM
